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有一种爱叫做放手,

2009-06-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

will be MIA for awhile.
will reply tags & will be back soon.so stay tune.

Stella:relinked
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Eunice:tealeaf!!!relinked

i was thinkin that will we have a happy ending like fairytales does?

2009-06-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

It is perhaps too early to determine how all the pieces fit together and how things function in this alternate reality. However, we can gather what we know at the moment, and speculate and hypothesize about what may come in the future. After the fact, we may revisit the series and observe how much our reasoning was off the mark!

will we continue walking down the road,hand to hand?

2009-06-16T09:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 5TH MONTH JOMIN BUMBLEBEE
HAPPY 4TH MONTH PREM KOR
Within a blink of an eye, many things seemed to happened. Problems stacking one over another, I hope things will revert to the past. Time seems to past like hours when I'm alone. The ticking of time seems to echo within my eardrums. Things are knocking loudly on my heart. Happiness seems to be flying away soon.a day which i don't wish to talk about it

waitin for 3 day with 3 kinds of attitude

2009-06-15T04:39:00.000-07:00

woke up at 10+ & on com to edit things & talking to Andrea on msn.cheer up,girl. got anything to complain or talk out to feel free to find me :D we were talking some personal stuff.went for netball at 2p.m , sat there waitin for other to come.today netball is damn bored,but had a match which i didnt play at all.chattin personal stuff with Huiting while watch the match.leave at 6. went bbt shop to have a drink & went hime.reached home at 7.

Addicted - Stevie Hoang
Since you went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but
Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking
Do you still think of me like I think about you
Do you still dream of me cos I can't sleep without you
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you
It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got until it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over you
Damn I realized my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged you to stay
Do you still think of me like I think about you
Do you still dream of me cos I can't sleep without you
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you
If u ever lost someone you truly love
Let me hear you say yeah
And if you lost someone u truly need
Let me hear you say yeah
Do you still think of me like I think about you
Do you still dream of me cos I can't sleep without you
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you

whenever i think of you,i turned quiet

2009-06-14T06:14:00.002-07:00

HOHO,IM GOING PIERCING ON THIS WNDNESDAY<3
so happy,which ear which pierce neh?can give idea?nevermind,i will figure it out myself.today,i damn bored,stayed at home all day long.sorry bi, zhu, changjie cannot sms you all coz my phone no money le T_T .but promise you all,will topup by 16th.

got to know her through chowlin blog.
guess what, her name is Toey Jarinporn & she a thai actress.
she is damn white, skinny & chio lorh.
i bet people will agree with me.

coming for you-JOJO

ooohh.....ooooooh
for you

I had a change of heart
Don’t know where to start
What I’m about to say
May surprise you
But now I see it clear
Life ain’t always fair
oh...oh
What can you do
When you don’t want to hurt him
Cause you don’t deserve him
And there’s no other way
yea yeah yeah yea

I’m breaking down
I just can’t take it anymore
Oh No, I won’t let you go
You know I’m coming for you
No matter what its gonna take
I gotta make this move
You're the one, that I choose
You know I’m coming for you
And I just can’t go another day
Without you next to me
oh...oh yeah

Don’t know what to say
Guess I’ll take the blame
Eventually it was bound to happen
I know you played your part
I ain’t tryin to make it hard
But it’s the right thing to do
And you don’t want to hurt him,
Cause you don’t deserve him
There’s no other way
yeah yeah yeah

I’m breaking down
I just can’t take it anymore
Oh No, I won’t let you go
You know I’m coming for you
No matter what its gonna take
I gotta make this move
You're the one, that I choose
You know I’m coming for you
And I just can’t go another day
Without you next to me
oh...oh yeah

Now that you know the truth
Just wanna be with you
Can’t hold back, this is real
Cause what we share
It’s undeniable
Don’t want to hide no more
Here I am and I’m coming for you
Oh

I’m breaking down
I just can’t take it anymore
Oh No, I won’t let you go
You know I’m coming for you
No matter what it’s gonna take
I gotta make this move
You're the one, that I choose
You know I’m coming for you
And I just can’t go another day
Without you next to me
oh...oh yeah

I’m breaking down
I just can’t take it anymore
Oh No, I won’t let you go
You know I’m coming for you(for you)

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around.My faith in you is fading

2009-06-13T11:32:00.000-07:00

11th June 2009,Thursday: went to t1 at 10+a.m to help do his Changjie homework.but i was like doing nothing there.went to his school for awhile after that go back to t1 again continue at there working with his work.finish at 6+.we exchanged slipper when we walking to mac. he say i like duck walking sia.then i say he become fish as my shoe theme is about fish bone.i keep disiao-ing him that he a fish.have lots of fun one the bus.reach home at about 7+p.m.have a bath & help him to do his report.but is like everything he is the one doing ,i only remix what he say.stay till 3a.m then sleep.Weiling slept at my house as her house people all sleep leh.had some relationship chat with her.

12th June 2009,Friday: woke up at 7a.m to get ready meeting changjie to do his work again.meet him at his school there the bus stop after that went SCC to do his work.i typed his report while he drawing his work.went to his school as he need to wash his hand which turned black while he was drawing & he need to put his stuff in there.had lunch at mac again.went back to his schl & waited for him from 2+ to 5+ alone.i at there very tired sia,sleep awhile before he come out from his class & pack his paper.went around walking & went home at 6+.
passed Charcoal Coca Cola Contour Glass from Mac to weiling as i promised her ytd to get her one.had father's day celebration as my family is going to malaysia for holiday.used com for awhile before heading to bed.msg with changjie from 12+ till 1+ & sleep.

as for today:
HAPPY 2ND MONTH,SQUARE GANG ♥
woke up 12+ & receive msged bi.coz first time i later then bi wake up,then he damn happy.bi,you're damn cutee! went out to find xinyin to take back my clothes & off back to home. using com to edit things.

I find this story super touching. I cried after reading this.

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together. She said, "I miss you.” I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home.” She did not open up her umbrella; I knew she wanted to share mine. I said, "Open up your umbrella, and let’s go."
Unwillingly, she opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No! “Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station; she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.

She begged and said, "Let’s go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."

With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, and then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore.” I felt so sour inside; there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now? “I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain would go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young; she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three year’s feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, and loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away; I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.

She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

lost & insecure

2009-06-10T20:15:00.000-07:00

yo!Jiaxin's back people!
got miss me bo?
anyway, going to post fast as going out later.

8th June 2009 ,Monday:didn't go for netball as not feeling well & lazy. meet up at school at nearly 1p.m with lezhu & changjie.went around to tm & t1 to buy present for people.went t1 coffee shop the beside there to slack.changjie is damn a quiet joker.he made me and lezhu laughs like nobody business. went back home at about 6.30p.m.

9th June 2009,Tuesday:didn't go for netball again as have flu but still went out.went sk at nearly 1p.m.waited for Bi , Cheng , Jun play finish there game or whatever thing.went Suntec to with Bi , Cheng , Jun , Ahtan & cheeson buy their thing.after that went to bugis street to buy their thing again.gossiped about people on the way back.went home for awhile to settle some problem.went to cheeson house to find bi & pass him thing.slack at his house till 9+.pei bi to take bus till bedok & take mrt.but until euno stop then got off. reach home at about 10p.m
sorry bi,
cannot pei ni take mrt till your stop.
have a great talk with you on the way.
i know you now very headache who to chose.
if you really chose her,don't worried.
we can still be friends.
so just go by your hearts.

bi , iloveyou.
30th May 2009,

will it be gone soon ?

2009-06-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

Tagged by:Eunice

1. Real name : Ie Jia Xin!
2. Nickname : Ahxin,XINXIN
3. Star sign : Aries
4. Male or female : Female.
5. Primary school : Mahabodhi Primary School
6. Secondary school : Damai secondary school
7. JC/POLY : not yet to the studying lvl
8. Hair color : like black like brown. hahas
9. Long or short : long!
10 . Loud or Quiet : depends
11. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
12. Phone or camera : both larh!
13. Health freak : IN HEAVEN!
14 . Drink or smoke :drink
15 . Do you have a crush on someone : don't be so kp
16 . Eat or drink : both!
17 . Piercings : the normal 2
18 . Tattoos : maybe

Have You Ever ;
19. Been in an airplane : ya
20 . Been in a relationship : ya
21 . Been in a car accident : ya
22 . Been in a fist fight : erm...i don't know
23. First piercing : ears lorhs
24 . First best friend : forgottten
25 . First award : forgottten XP
26 . First Crush :i will tell you when i rmb
27 . First Vacation : ask my parent

Lasts ;
28 . Last person you talked to : Jiacheng
29 . Last person you texted to : Weishen
30 . Last person(s) you watched a movie with :weishen,ahtan
32. Last food you ate : forgotten
33 . Last movie you watched : forgotten th name
34 . Last song you listened to : LADB
35 . Last thing you bought : apple juice
36 . Last person you hugged : don't be kp

Favourites ;
37 . Food : dont know
38. Drinks : orange juice
39 . Clothing : dont know
40 . Books : dont know
41 . Song : lot
42 . Flower :as long as it pretty
43 . Colors : as long as it nice
44 . Movies : dont know where to start
45 . Phrase :dont know
46 . Subjects :dont know

You ever done before ;
47 . Kissed in the snow : nope
48 . Celebrated Halloween : ya
49. Had your heart broken :ya
50 . Went over the minutes on your cell phone : huh?
51 . Someone questioned your sexual orientation : will chase th ppl like madly first
52 : Came out of the closest : meaning?
53 . Gotten pregnant : no
54 . Had an abortion : like i can like this
55 . Done something you've regretted : duh
56 . Broke a promise : ya
57 . Hid a secret : many!
58 . Pretended to be happy : ya
59 . met someone who changed your life : ya
60 . Pretended to be sick :for what?
61 . Left the country : duh
62 . Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it :maybe
63 . Cried over the silliest thing : ya
64 . Ran a mile : ya,but always stopping
65 . Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : ya
66 . Stay single the whole year : no

Currently ;
67 . Eating : nopes
68. Drinking : nopee
69. I'm about ton : huh?
70 . Listening to : 勇敢-BY2
71 . Plans for tomorrow : www
72 . Waiting for : seeing him
73 . Want kids : maybe
74. Want to get married : maybe
75 . Careers in mind : ya
76 . Which is better than Girl / Boy : everyone is equal
76 . Lips or eyes : both
77 . Shorter or taller : Taller
78 . Romantic or spontaneous : Bothh!
79 . Nice stomach or nice arms : for?
80. Sensitive or loud : both
81 . Hook-up or relationship : relationship
82. Trouble-maker or hesistant :maybe both

Have you ever ;
83. Lost glasses/ contacts : ya
84. Ran away from home : ya
85. Hold a gun or knife for self defense : ya
86 . Killed somebody :obv not
87 . Broken someone's heart :ya,deeply in
88 . Been arrested : no larhs
89. Cried when someone died :ya

Do you believe in ;
90 . yourself : no
91. Miracles : ya
92 . Love at first sight : ya
93 . Heaven :ya
94 . Santa Claus : maybe
95 . Sex on the first date : never!
96 . Kiss on the first date : never!
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now : DUH!
98 . Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : ya. 100%
100 . This is the 100th & last question :you now then know ar?pity you sia.go fix a spec.

Now tag 10 people to do this :
anyone who wanna to do this